During this whole journey of self-love I have gotten messages from strangers, friends, and even family, asking how I became confident. And the truth is, it didn’t just happen. It’s a daily fight and I’ve don’t a lot of self care. Some of you know that I see a therapist and a nutritionist to help keep me on the right track and stay vocal about my emotions. This of course, is not required for one to get where I’ve gotten, but it’s definitely a huge help for me. Just talking about our insecurities is a huge step. My blogging/Instagram is also a huge part in my recovery as well. Helping others has really pushed me to stay positive, because how can I help you if I can’t take my own advice.
There are days where I feel like a million bucks and am so proud of my progress, and then there are days where I feel like I’ve taken 100 steps back…but no matter how bad the day is, I’m still talking through it, which means I’m moving forward.
On the days I am feeling like I’ve made no progress and want to revert back to my old ways I’ve learned to do a lot of self care. I also tell myself that this is not a permanent feeling. I often read my own blog, journal, workout, talk to friends and family, and do something relaxing like a bubble bath.
My therapist said something my last visit that really resonated with me. She said, “we don’t have control of those first thoughts that pop into our head, but we have control of the after thoughts.” When I used to have the thoughts like, “Julia you look so chubby” I would continue those negative thoughts and wallow in those bad feelings. Instead of validating that first thought I now disagree and change my thoughts to positive ones. Of course it’s easier said than done and sometimes seems silly…but if you’re not going to think positive things about yourself how is anyone else going to? You need to be your biggest fan…and that does not make you conceited or cocky. You’re supposed to love yourself and somewhere in our lives something shifted that made you think otherwise.
Some bully, some boyfriend, the thousands of media messages shoved in our faces, have made us think we are mr good enough and need to change…but let me tell you… You are perfect the way you are. Feed your body, workout, get fresh air, feed your mind, and your body will take care of itself.
So I want you to challenge yourself… The next time you have a negative thought about yourself…acknowledge it, then disagree with it and turn it to a positive one. 🙂 if your friend said, “I’m fat,” you would never say, “yea oh are,” (unless you suck)…so why do that to yourself? Be a friend…be your biggest fan!!!
Today is the day you can make the change and decide to love yourself. It’s not going to be easy…but it’s so fucking worth it. (Excuse my language.)
I love you all and thank you for your endless support. You all help me in my journey of recovery and I can’t thank you enough for joining me!
Have a beautiful day!
~Xoxo, Jules
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You be you, and I’ll be me.
There’s the “popular” kids, the “nerds,” the “jocks,” and about a million other ways to categorize people. For me, in school, there was always the fear of not fitting in. The fear of not belonging to a group and I wasn’t even sure what group I would’ve belonged to, but I wanted to be popular. I always had friends from multiple groups and always felt I was a little bit of everything. But for the longest time I just wanted to fit in. I would try to be something I wasn’t, just because I didn’t want to stand out. I was afraid of judgement if I wore something different and I tried so hard to be what I thought was “cool.” I wanted to be desired by the hot guys and envied by the pretty girls. I wanted all of this because I was so insecure with just being myself. I was always the funny girl that none of the guys had a crush on because I was one of the guys…and I hated that. I spent so much time thinking about how I wasn’t desirable and it only made me more insecure. I hated the way my body looked and I blamed it for not being what I thought was attractive. And I wasted so much time when I should’ve been enjoying school.
This is my fight song.
I know I’ve said this before…I used to think that I was going to spend my life hating my body, never feeling comfortable in my own skin. And what a horrible feeling! No one should ever feel gross in their own bodies. I was so used to body shaming, negative self talk, and really unhealthy habits…all because I hated what I saw. I wasn’t what I saw in magazines and I felt inadequate.
Here’s my story, what’s yours?
Enjoy, you beautiful people!
Angry No More.
Forgiveness is a choice we make. Not for the benefit of the other person. It’s not so they can skip away merely into the sunset. It’s for ourselves. So we don’t have to carry around hurt, anger, and bitterness. They weigh us down, blur our vision. Make our journey slower and painful. Forgiveness allows us to drop all of these things. To no loner carry them with us. To continue our journey, lighter and more at peace.
You Do You, Boo Boo.
Do you ever not do something or not say something in fear of embarrassment? Do you not voice your opinion because you’re afraid of what someone else might think or say? We all do it. We all hold back to some extent. Maybe it’s because we don’t want to hurt someone’s feelings so we tiptoe around what you say, maybe it’s because you want to come off in a certain way like desperate or needy, or maybe it’s because you’re afraid of rejection.
Picture Perfect
Do you ever take a picture, look at it, and then immediately delete it?
You are more than a body.
Happy Wednesday all my beautiful people!
Swimsuits are NOT your worst enemy.
Again, I’ve been MIA…cause well, life happens. Sometimes it’s ok to simply just enjoy life, but don’t worry, I didn’t forget about my followers.
So over the past few weeks a lot has happened and I’ve realized many things. As much as I sit here and preach about self love sometimes it’s hard to take my own advice. It’s easy to give it, when you’re not the one feeling the emotions, but when you’re in it, it’s so hard to take a step back and realize some things.
One thing that was hard for me in the last 2 weeks was swimsuits. It’s been getting a lot warmer here in Cali, and that means beach or pool days…and that’s also means the dreaded bikini season.
Everybody always says…I’m not bikini ready, I got to lose some weight before I even put this on… Bla bla bla… I do it too! But guess what…inure never going to be “ready” if you can’t accept your body and all its flaws. You will always find something wrong with it and always find something to be insecure about.
This past weekend I went to a pool party AND the beach…and I had anxiety through the roof! I tried on a million of my swimsuits and wanted to wear one of my full suits…it covered my tummy and that’s all I could stare at in my bikini. BUT I also had this awful thought that people were going to think…”oh fat girls in the full suit” and yea I know… CRAZY. But hey, we all have those thoughts sometimes. We all think someone is going to be thinking something, but guess what?!?! EVERYONE IS EITHER INSECURE THINKING ABOUT WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE OR NOT GIVING TWO SHITS AND ENJOYING THEMSELVES. So in reality… No one is judging you, and if they are, it’s probably because they are insecure themselves. No one who is a true friend is friends with you because of how you look, so why would they judge you for having a tummy and wearing a bikini?!
So guess what I did?! I wore a motherfreakin bikini! And at the beach I did too… And I even played frisbee. Which is HUGE. I usually would just lay there hoping to not have a big gust of wind jiggle my tummy, but I said screw it and got up and played frisbee and I definitely jiggled… And guess what?! I had a great time.
So stop worrying about what everyone is thinking and STOP worrying about what you’re thinking, cause you’re wrong. You are amazing, you are beautiful, and you are more than your body.
I love you all and TGIF!!!
~xoxo, jules
Love yourself NOW, not later.
I hope you enjoy my awkward video blog everyone! ✌️ Missed you all!
~xoxo, Jules