Again, I’ve been MIA…cause well, life happens. Sometimes it’s ok to simply just enjoy life, but don’t worry, I didn’t forget about my followers.
So over the past few weeks a lot has happened and I’ve realized many things. As much as I sit here and preach about self love sometimes it’s hard to take my own advice. It’s easy to give it, when you’re not the one feeling the emotions, but when you’re in it, it’s so hard to take a step back and realize some things.
One thing that was hard for me in the last 2 weeks was swimsuits. It’s been getting a lot warmer here in Cali, and that means beach or pool days…and that’s also means the dreaded bikini season.
Everybody always says…I’m not bikini ready, I got to lose some weight before I even put this on… Bla bla bla… I do it too! But guess what…inure never going to be “ready” if you can’t accept your body and all its flaws. You will always find something wrong with it and always find something to be insecure about.
This past weekend I went to a pool party AND the beach…and I had anxiety through the roof! I tried on a million of my swimsuits and wanted to wear one of my full suits…it covered my tummy and that’s all I could stare at in my bikini. BUT I also had this awful thought that people were going to think…”oh fat girls in the full suit” and yea I know… CRAZY. But hey, we all have those thoughts sometimes. We all think someone is going to be thinking something, but guess what?!?! EVERYONE IS EITHER INSECURE THINKING ABOUT WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE OR NOT GIVING TWO SHITS AND ENJOYING THEMSELVES. So in reality… No one is judging you, and if they are, it’s probably because they are insecure themselves. No one who is a true friend is friends with you because of how you look, so why would they judge you for having a tummy and wearing a bikini?!
So guess what I did?! I wore a motherfreakin bikini! And at the beach I did too… And I even played frisbee. Which is HUGE. I usually would just lay there hoping to not have a big gust of wind jiggle my tummy, but I said screw it and got up and played frisbee and I definitely jiggled… And guess what?! I had a great time.
So stop worrying about what everyone is thinking and STOP worrying about what you’re thinking, cause you’re wrong. You are amazing, you are beautiful, and you are more than your body.
I love you all and TGIF!!!
~xoxo, jules
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